School's out for way too much, there is barely 2 weeks left till it reopens. Projects are beginning to run smoothly but slightly behind time, its should be able to be cleared by the time school starts, hopefully. Chalet was just over, had fun, think deeply about stuffs, heart to heart talks and also wrecking havoc. i went to the chalet with much anticipation, afterall this is our first chalet together. Before i get started on the chalet, i went to visit zheng li at the hospital. Apparently his wound got infected and he will need to have it cleaned thoroughly. He is suppose to have a chalet right about now, unfortunately he still cannot get past the fate with doctor and nurses. OK back to the chalet, BBQ was good, with a little prawns left, which was eventually thrown away. Lots of unexpected guest, qi yuan, kenrick and even MOE! First night was a little jam pack, we were all like sardines squeezing into a can. Eventually we went to the beach to drink and have a heart to heart chats. Clarence, Terrence, Yong Quan and Chris are the main participants. The weather was kinda dry, as we took off our shirt and started talking. Got to know alot about them, and i still feel very fucked up. But it was a nice chat, realising what im doing, what i should do. Maybe if im stopped acting like a total douche, people would stopped looking at me like im one. Then again, if im not a complete douche, i would be unapproachable. The Mr-Nice-Guy side of me tends to only reveal when im wif a bunch of gd frens or when im wif juz one or two frens. I have no idea why, it became part of me. The douche was a mask, just like the cartoon and move "The Mask", Jim Carrey put on the mask on too many occasion till he sticks to him, giving him no way to remove it, making him a total different person. This is what i think im right now. Well, we'll see how it goes on to decide on wearing which mask. Second night more bustling, being a saturday, there were more bbq compared to ytd and it make our chalet looked like a ghost house as everywhere was having fun, making noises, bbq foods, all of them except us. Well we had our fun, no doubt this will remain in our memory for a long long time. Once again, thanks to Terrence and Mark's gf for making this happen.
Feel really shitty once again although im not gonna state why, but i hope this is just a short term kind of feeling. Because feelings which i though i lost came back all of a sudden, which made me ponder on alot of things. I hope it doesnt last for long, because my birthday is coming. The song playin now just made it worsen by alot - Thats what you get by PARAMORE