i cant bear to c u walk away...
Thursday, April 30, 2009 10:07 PM
alot of stuffs hav been goin on lately...homework started pilin up...project is scarin the crap out of me...i hav no mood nw...after wad happened last nite...well...u r right...im NTH but a FUCKIN HYPOCRITE...
Sunday, April 26, 2009 1:02 AM
forget everything n run away with me...
i realise then when u tend to ignore me, my whole world simply collapse...
Thursday, April 23, 2009 1:32 AM
today wasnt a gd day...i supppose thr is friction everywhr...the heat is increasin...i can feel the tension surround me...oh well...normal ppl would juz sit n watch...i cant...anywayz...microeconomics is kinda cool...so is neetat, my lecturer...after lecture when arnd lookin at cca...signed up for TPSU n ARCHERY...saw siew hoon n she try to get me to join life savin...my mom wil seriously drown me if i join tad...once again...im gonna cont rantin bout being the only child...when ur parents r old fashioned...its simply screwed!i might b their gem...but i find myself to b in a cage...the cage is made of the word "NO"n "YES" is the key to the lock...well...terr is in trouble...im steppin in...he's thr durin my down periods...i cant juz listen to him n juz let him settle his own problems...cauz he cant!n i cant believe tad i love a gal who keeps bully me
i look in ur eyes... i felt love...
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 1:10 AM
BOOOO!today was abit slow at 1st...wake up...went online...no one tok 2 sia...all bz wif lecture n stuffs...after tad...went out...took bus to hougang...saw yanqi n qiuyi...qiu yi sae i change alot...lol...question her some other time...then met up wif cheryl n fiona...i think i saw ying jie...oh well...hope she dun recognise me...then we took bus 161...walao...i tot they kidnappin me cauz the bus goes to woodlands...i dropped my hp =(went mos burger for lunch...then terr came...he want me pay for cab fees...TMD!then i slam my hp on the table...T.Tafter tad went fiona's hse...her sis poor thing...nid do chinese...then i went to teach her poa...she claims i was bullyin her...rite...more lik i was bullied...her family seems nice =)then i went bak home...i lik all hyped out...nvm...tmr muveee...lol...i think i meetin them after movie...lol...1R04!HUAT AR!PS - peektures officially up on facebook =)
i cant wait to c u, u noe...
Tuesday, April 21, 2009 12:36 AM
today was actually the 1st day of sch...thx geraldine for her prayer...all was well...anywayz...i was a minute late... LOLsat nxt to ryan...the 1st lecturer was naggy!cb nag nag nag 1 hour plus...then start lesson...she sibei scary la...she is teachin us acct...then after the god damned 2 hours...which make me freeze...lecture is finally over...so went to eat wif jeremy n ryan...then mathew came...we went to walk arnd...go bak lecture again...after class...a grp of us stayed bak...we nid a treasurer...when all eyes were fixed on me...i pointed to jiun ru...so nw CLASS 1R04JIUN RU is our class treasurer...after tad we went out...me, jeremy, ryan, janice, serene, jasreel n rebecca...ryan left after lunch...so we went shop n shop n shop...actually the gals did most of the shoppin...after tad we took pictures...i turned a camwhore overnite LOLlazy blog in details...pic r up on facebook i think...LOL
Sunday, April 19, 2009 1:35 AM
im tired ='(1st thing i do is COMPLAIN... LOLwell...start wif ytd...2nd day of orientation...went to sch...waitin for terr...then jun ru walk past me i oso nvr notice...then she tap me...lol...then terr came...i went off...she sae i very bad, nvr wait for her...lol...i went to c beside ryan...mr da silva is tokin...i keep on fallin aslp...I DINT SLP EARLY LAST NITE OKAY!then he keep lookin at me...zzz scary la...then i fall aslp in the end...after tad it ended... (thank god)then we hav a break...then we go up classroom...hmm...my CP is miss tan...cool man...she lik in her thirties...after tad we went to the stadium to do cheers...business gt the moz ppl...then we were squashed...we ate lunch...then daniel ask me join the support them...the one who go in front n cheer...the giv me a pail...then i pass to the gals n sean...they gimme bak...lol after cheer they goin reservoir cheer for regatta (dragonboat)lol i tak bag zao wif terr...we went pasir ris...then after tad MRT down to dhoby...it was a nice slp...especially when u dint slp at all last nite...after tad...we went long john for a snack...ashley called...he @ macs...so we went to find him n chat...soon kovan came...then joyce n elaine came...waited for alson...then we went...SWENSENS!lol we spent lik 20mins plannin our orders...then came a china lady...we bo bian converse in chinese lor...elaine was complainin tad her chinese nt gd...then we had jokes n stuffs...then elaine sae wan watch movie...then we check which movie available...joyce the smart ass...every movie we sae...she reply..."watch alr"so we decide to walk thr n decide...then we went thr...ke wea came!lol...then they were lik...watch "17 again?"i told lik everyone i dun wan...they all bo hiew me =.=then i told elaine she was lik...okok dun watch 17 again...in the end...17 AGAIN...bo bian...watch lor...we went in...i was in between kovan n terr...the movie is funny...lol...then elaine tot i was angry wif her for shooin me off...when i wanted to steal some popcorn...LOL LOL LOL LOL LOLdo i seem tad petty?then terr came poppin out..."u nvr know..."ok then we went home...TODAYi woke up...no one at home...lol...wadeva...lets skip the borin mornings...went to sch...gt tis st gabs guy on the bus...i diao him the whole trip...stil dunno who he is...lol...then i saw a hell lots of teachers...frens...juniors...took cert...n left early...tak 76 down to PP...then go meet the gals...so total strength...7 ppl...me terr fiona ferlynn cheryl yanqi n andreawe went for the food hunt...lol...we gt 2 hungry ppl...yanqi n ferlynn...then 1st task...muz eat mash potato wif the mouth...zzzi was up...wahh sibei sia lan la...i eat eat eat until my mouth full of mash potato...then they bak they cheerin n cheerin...then i look at the person beside me..."wah he monster ar... eat so fast"then i think..."cannot sia suay the team""pia jiu pia lor"then i took in everything...zzzalot la...after tad we went off...we walk walk walk...damn long T.Twe disturb a nice guy at KFC twice...then we went into macdonalds lookin lik idiots...then on the way bak...fiona's leg the blister came out...so she was strugglin to walk...then we slowly make our way bak...was damn bloody relief when we reached the destination...wad am i doin nw?finishin the sweets tad cheryl gav...cauz stupid ferlynn dun wanna pass down...yanqi at 1st pass down alr...then ferlynn tak the sweet then look at me...then pass me bak...i think she gt smth against me... LOL<------- the tag says it all.... XPokok i nid rush proposal again T.T cya...
Friday, April 17, 2009 12:38 AM
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you' re my. my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
ok today was orientation...a kind soul gav me mornin call...but gav up after 3 attempts...hw nice...ok then i bus down...then bro mathew LWEE...told me he at mushroom...so i rush thr liao...called him...tad blaurdly idiot tell me he at white sands takin bus...ok then i went in convention centre wif terr...i was alone sittin thr...then i saw a familiar face...i ask myself...isnt tad... jun ru (sp)then she came n sit nxt to me...lol wad a small world...lol she is in the same class as me...i was shocked for awhile...okay...soon settle down...JUN RU ASK ME JOIN DRAGON BOAT WIF HER....the freshies de...lolthen we went for icebreakers...my class only gt 5 guys... out of 25 ppl...then we play some games in lecture room...soon came the mass dance...my dance partner was alicia...somehw she noes hw 2 dance...i dun...so i ended up lik..."ok i forget wad moves nxt"then after tad we go do chicken dance...n then the TP sch song dance (can u believe it?)after tad we went to the stadium to hav a tug o war match...i fell aslp...guess i was too tired...after tad mass dance again...tis time my partner is a classmate of mine...whom i cant rmb the name...then we keep switchin partners n stuffs...after tad we left as it was the end of day 1...the bus stop was full...so me n terr decide to walk...then we lost our way... LOL...then eat at his hse n went home...im...once...again...heels...over...head...
Thursday, April 16, 2009 2:46 AM
So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I’m yours to keep And hold onto your words ‘Cause talk is cheap And remember me tonight When you’re asleep Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don’t make me change my mind Or I won’t live to see another day I swear it’s true Because a girl like you is impossible to find
arghhh she feel aslp!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 1:35 AM
ok im damn bored wif the proposals...i shall blog 1st...the rest can wait...i feel lik wimp...i was listenin to songs halfway...i felt emo...no wait i felt sad...i couldnt help...i felt very vulnerable...so vulnerable tad my eyes became watery...as i blink, tears came rollin down my cheeks....reminiscencetads wad i call it...it was uncontrollable...for the 1st time...i feel dead pathetic...i tot i was very happy n well...strong on the outside...but i guess...im nt...how i wish the person im thinkin of...would come to me...gimme a hug...n sae..."its alright nw, u dun hav to suffer anymore, im here for u..."i muz nt succumb to myself...i muz 1st think of wads best...therefore i cant left my selfish thinkin get in the way...quit being emotional gerwyn!today was rather okay...went to meet sam at amk...then go serangoon meet xingwei, yoke yeong gerard, jon was late...i saw kabilen...the bus stop at mrt sell cigarettes to students...frm wad kabilen said...MUZ REPORT!then saw carter...he goin amk hub fight...zzzdun anyhw long la... nt ur territory oso...jon came n we went to queensway...walked arnd aimlessly...then went to eat at macs...after tad gerard bought his bag...its nice...bused home wif yoke yeong...then TMD thomsom thr gt accident...a lil jam...oh gosh i hope no casualty...ok bak to proposals...psst... i think the kind slpyhead who offer to pei me fall aslp...!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 2:01 AM
Down and to the left
(Here's a map and the pen, the place you pointed at)
Be California's best
(All I ask, all I ask)
And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
ok tads the lyrics of my new blog song...
im lik super fuckin tired...
its loud in a sense...
n oso...
cauz someone dun lik we r the kings
*raise eyebrows*
okok lemme c...
i was havin a wonderful dream...
til someone woke me up...
n tad someone blamed me for nt turnin my hp to slient mode...!
ridiculous...
was rottin my mornin away...
then my dad called...
"ELLO ELLO MY HP ON THE TABLE NT?"
lol if he lost his hp, my mom wil kill him...
well it is on the table...
although i would love to c them quarell over a hp...
b4 i step in to hush them down...
he came home n bought lunch...
hw nice of him...
after tad met up wif kj...
went expo for a walk...
he went to find stuffs for his 6 months anniversary...
admire him alot...
hah...
came home after tad...
well...
i hav smth to sae...
lookin at u bak then...
n lookin at u nw...
u changed...
i will always b here...
whether u change or nt...
i hate the chong sisters...
one call me asshole...
n the other come n sae tis
"ello bangles"
then a whole lot of ppl came tokin 2 me on msn...
OMG ARE U WEARIN BANGLES?!
"OMG DAMN GAY LA"
credits to...
cheryl for her bangles...
MISS FIONA CHONG for makin me wear them
ferlynn for goin BANGLES all over...
terr for makin me SHOW them...
oh fuck u all...
then...
nvm...
came tis damn gal...
"are u gerwyn? OMFG WAD HAPPENED TO UR HAIR?!"
_l_
i hav no comments...
i feel lik an idiot seriously...
then josh tad idiot...
ask him try smth...
he really go...
nw my fren in deep shit la...
u fuck face...
i kena blame la...
wtf is tis...
i ask u go try...
NT SCREW THINGS UP
haiz...
i dunno hw 2 help him nw...
im juz sry...
terribly...
haiz...
im juz so...
*unexplainable*
i dunno...
i feel very very very very....
confused...
well i think i nid to start a diary...
lol but i lazy update...
i go get a book nw...
burbye!
Monday, April 13, 2009 1:24 PM
time to update my linkies! realise alot ppl change URL le...n they dint bother to go my taggie go"RELINK ME!"sian la... so many at once... cb...okok im meetin kai jun at 2 so muz hurry....lets blog bout ytd...ppl drag me to sg indoor stadium ytd...terr woke me up at 7!when i slept at 3 plus 4...i pull myself up...sneaked out of the hse...went dhoby to hav breakfast...eat liao went to indoor stadium straight....the gals made me cab...without payin for my cab!okok reach liao...the concert was okay...the preachin was abit sucky...mayb tads becauz i dint attend any b4...then they pull ferlynn down to make her a christians...somehw i gt pushed down as well...oh well...after tad, cheryl gt the green light to pon tuition...her dad treat us to lunch at some seafood restaurant...hmmm...cheryl's parents r awesome man...they hav a very gd sense of humor...i mean...they r so diff frm mine...who treats me lik a son/slave....LOLthen after tad we bus down to dhoby....make fun of terr on the way...but terr hav to leave...leavin me wif 4 gals...went cineleisure...i ended up treatin everyone to unborn...tmd...cheryl was being a ninja...wrappin her sweater arnd her body...the cinema was dark...n so we can only c her specs n her eyes...hmmm...she hav gd camoflagin skills....then tad fiona ar...haiz...watch 2nd time liao stil scared...i stil nid cover her eyes...after awhile...fion change sit wif me cauz i was makin fun of cheryl...hw ironic...she is scared herself...then ferlynn sae gt laughin partner...as i was beside her...guess wad?!at the end, i was hit by the sisters...ferlynn n fiona...ASSHOLE!after movie...they forced their bags on me...andrea was nice...she carry her own bag...then walk walk walki saw AVERY WONG!he was lik..."oh shit! why do i hav to c tis guy?"HEY CMON LA...I SHLD B THE ONE SAYIN TAD!then they went hk cafe to hav dinner...join them...n i was cont gettin tortured...damn...took bus home ltr...a whole day of torturin sux...LOLLabels: UNBORN IS DAMN FUNNY MUAHAHAHAHA
Sunday, April 12, 2009 1:02 AM
i had the most peculiar dream last nite...i was on the floor...tears were pourin down...ur bak was facin me...i stretched out my hands...callin out for u...u dint turn bak...instead...u took a step forward...away frm me...each step u took...i grew in despair...hopin tad u wil turn bak...i keep callin for u...but u juz wont turn arnd...it was the moz crushin feelin i ever experienced...nw i finally understands...OKOKenuff of nightmares...i was suppose to blog bout gd fri...okay...joyce came bak to sg...so we went to hang out wif her...but then...my hse is expectin guests at nite...therefore i cant stil til too late...gera suggested tis "party"her church gatherin...since terr, ash n kovan is goin...i think i shld giv it a try...ash... gosh hav lots to ask him...so i embarked on tis little path of gd fri...i was late... (nt surprising)reached admiralty...lol i realise alot of ppl...guessed wad...only 4 guys...me kovan ash n terr...ok then we started wif icebreakers...after tad i was aimed by the in charge...zzzwhacko i b the 1st...they were bombin names which i dun even noe who izzit...i was basically spinnin arnd...then when i nt whacko liao...they all cal my name...i kena whack...then nid split into grps...they lik sexist liddat... LOLall the guys b ldrs...okay fine...no complaints...then we play some games la...my grp consists of 2 diff cliques i guess...1 clique frm mayflower...the other im nt too sure...but they work tgt really well...watched the show...help them clear up...after tad...it was rainin pretty heavily...so me n terr chiong to bus stop...damn bloody cold...was DRENCHED....then we realise their bakgate nxt to the bus stop...hw smart gerwyn! *pat on the back*we cabbed to j8...we were tokin bout our grps n stuffs...gera claims the mayflower sec ppl seemed to lik me alot...ya rite...she sae help me get their number somemore...excuse me miss, i dun wan them!lol... i sound totally bitchy...nvm...then we walked arnd aimlessly at j8...the shows werent really appealin to us...so we ended up goin tpy to watch handsome suit...its a gd show...except tad i nid to rush to the toilet towards the end...due to my *burstin any minute* BLADDER....lol it was ok...after tad went home...geez...so many ppl...was dead tired...i rest for awhile...throwin away my task to entertain...well...i feel lik a sec sch kid again today...i hav no idea y...i think perhaps one day...
everythin can go bak...
to the way it was b4...
hw naive of me...
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 10:41 PM
i look at the sky...askin it to tell me wad to do...i look at my lappy...hopin it would gimme the courage to do wad i shld...then i went to lie on my bed...thinkin mayb i can get inspiration...now im sittin bak here typin away...still dunno wad to do...at a period when i feel im needed...i was in my room doin smth i shldnt...cauz tis is hw useless im...hw pathetic i really feel...
Sunday, April 5, 2009 4:09 AM
smth tad cheer me up...
ripped frm WS
Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.
Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.
Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.
Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.
Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.
Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They'll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.
Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they're able to change it for ACJC?)
Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They'll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows* )
Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.
Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?
Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it to turn on by itself.
Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.
Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what is litebarb?
Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb; the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let's do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.
Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.
Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They'll find ways out of the dark.
Q: Who wrote all this?
A: A TJCian.
Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.
3:36 AM
the day i stop lovin u is the day u genuinely want me to...
my heart is urs, do wad u wan wif it
u can make me so happy and at the same time so hurt even the best is replaced by u...
words are juz words...
yet they bring bak so many memories...
memories tad i had yet cleared...
tad i refuses to clear...
tad i dun think i ever wil clear...
im stuck rite nw...
once again...
juz lik afew yrs bak...
only tis time...
i gt help, i gt support...
i dunno wad i wanna do anymore...
i feel lik givin up...
but i dun wan to...
each day goes by, its gettin more hurtful...
the pain tad stays, tad nvr goes away...
the thoughts tad makes it so hard to bear...
n yet at the same time...
i cant help it...
its nt an action nw, its a habit...
i guess...
nt everything change...
im stil the same...