why does it turn out this way...
Saturday, November 22, 2008 9:51 PM
a young boy...
was juz taught hw to walk...
he tried walkin for a long time...
at first, he enjoyed walkin...
then slowly, he became more darin...
he started to run...
he ran n ran...
as fast as he could...
n he fell...
he was in great pain...
it was so unbearable...
awhile later...
he recovered...
n started walkin again...
he walk lik he used to...
however he nvr dare to run...
but things changed when someone came...
the someone taught him hw 2 run once more...
n the boy was tryin out...
at first he ran at a slow speed...
and soon, he pick up the pace...
n thr he was accelerating faster then ever...
tragedy struck...
he fell again...
the pain was much more excruciating then ever...
nw the question is...
WILL HE EVER RUN AGAIN?
met up wif ben, marcus, christopher, moe n dexter to go mr leong weddin...
saw dexter after a long time...
hope he is doin well in sports sch...
trained to commonwealth...
thr we sat thr...
waitin for the ceremony to begin...
GRATZ mr leong...
listened 2 the pastor...
he said smth bout...
compassion, kindness, gentleness, forebearness, forgivin n unconditional love...
well... i couldnt help but look down in guilt...
mayb wad he said was right...
thinkin bak... i felt lik cryin...
but again my tears ran out after ytd...
call it guilt but i reflected alot...
i juz couldnt b who i was...
mayb tad is becauz im juz a fool...
a fool to hav believe tad it would b different...
a fool who hav expected so much when all along it was so little...
a fool to give it my all without even thinkin bout wad happened...
or mayb...
i had long forgotten the pain that i once felt...
somehow the exact same words came hauntin...
the ghost of my past juz could nt leave me alone...
haiz...
tis isnt suppose 2 happen...
does all the words realli mean nth?
or izzit becauz of wad happened way long ago...
i stil cant forget tis...
"falling in love is the stupidest thing u eva did"
"men r bastards"
"they make u luv n hope n the lie!"
"foreva doesnt exists"
izzit becauz of tis nite...
tad make everythin change?
in midst of thinkin all of these...
i come 2 realise smth...
i shldnt have pour everythin out in the 1st place...
its my fault that i hav ended up tis way...
so pathetic rite nw...
everyone is offerin me help...
i juz refused them...
its nt tad i dun nid help...
its i DONT WANT any...
let me stay tis way...
only then i wil learn...
learn nt to trust entirely...
learn that words r forever words...
nth more to them...
i feelin the numb n coldness once again...
before all this things happen...
i was waitin for a miracle...
waitin for more then a yr...
waitin for tis one person 2 warm me up...
but i was rewarded wif more then a miracle...
once again...
it fail me...
shall i keep waitin for another miracle...
i dont know...
i dun wan a repeat of tis 2 happen again...
shakesphere once said...
"its better to have love n lost then to hav nvr love at all"
i tell him...
"it indeed is a wonderful, till it hurts"
alright...
i shall stop here...
whoeva readin tis...
u dun hav to gimme an ans...
i understand...
To everyone:
juz leave me alone...
juz leave me out frm nw on...
i wanna come 2 terms wif myself...
(to b honest, i dun really think i can do it)
hahahahahahaha...
im laughin at myself...
look wad im reduced to...
haha... wad a fool haha...
GO AHEAD! LAUGH AT ME!
LAUGH ALL U WAN...
ask me if im okay...
i wil ans...
"IM FINE"
but if u wan the truth...
IM NT!
so stop askin!
haha...
ironically speakin...
i stil love you...
u were thr for me when i needed u the most...
y cant i do the same for u nw?
was juz taught hw to walk...
he tried walkin for a long time...
at first, he enjoyed walkin...
then slowly, he became more darin...
he started to run...
he ran n ran...
as fast as he could...
n he fell...
he was in great pain...
it was so unbearable...
awhile later...
he recovered...
n started walkin again...
he walk lik he used to...
however he nvr dare to run...
but things changed when someone came...
the someone taught him hw 2 run once more...
n the boy was tryin out...
at first he ran at a slow speed...
and soon, he pick up the pace...
n thr he was accelerating faster then ever...
tragedy struck...
he fell again...
the pain was much more excruciating then ever...
nw the question is...
WILL HE EVER RUN AGAIN?
met up wif ben, marcus, christopher, moe n dexter to go mr leong weddin...
saw dexter after a long time...
hope he is doin well in sports sch...
trained to commonwealth...
thr we sat thr...
waitin for the ceremony to begin...
GRATZ mr leong...
listened 2 the pastor...
he said smth bout...
compassion, kindness, gentleness, forebearness, forgivin n unconditional love...
well... i couldnt help but look down in guilt...
mayb wad he said was right...
thinkin bak... i felt lik cryin...
but again my tears ran out after ytd...
call it guilt but i reflected alot...
i juz couldnt b who i was...
mayb tad is becauz im juz a fool...
a fool to hav believe tad it would b different...
a fool who hav expected so much when all along it was so little...
a fool to give it my all without even thinkin bout wad happened...
or mayb...
i had long forgotten the pain that i once felt...
somehow the exact same words came hauntin...
the ghost of my past juz could nt leave me alone...
haiz...
tis isnt suppose 2 happen...
does all the words realli mean nth?
or izzit becauz of wad happened way long ago...
i stil cant forget tis...
"falling in love is the stupidest thing u eva did"
"men r bastards"
"they make u luv n hope n the lie!"
"foreva doesnt exists"
izzit becauz of tis nite...
tad make everythin change?
in midst of thinkin all of these...
i come 2 realise smth...
i shldnt have pour everythin out in the 1st place...
its my fault that i hav ended up tis way...
so pathetic rite nw...
everyone is offerin me help...
i juz refused them...
its nt tad i dun nid help...
its i DONT WANT any...
let me stay tis way...
only then i wil learn...
learn nt to trust entirely...
learn that words r forever words...
nth more to them...
i feelin the numb n coldness once again...
before all this things happen...
i was waitin for a miracle...
waitin for more then a yr...
waitin for tis one person 2 warm me up...
but i was rewarded wif more then a miracle...
once again...
it fail me...
shall i keep waitin for another miracle...
i dont know...
i dun wan a repeat of tis 2 happen again...
shakesphere once said...
"its better to have love n lost then to hav nvr love at all"
i tell him...
"it indeed is a wonderful, till it hurts"
alright...
i shall stop here...
whoeva readin tis...
u dun hav to gimme an ans...
i understand...
To everyone:
juz leave me alone...
juz leave me out frm nw on...
i wanna come 2 terms wif myself...
(to b honest, i dun really think i can do it)
hahahahahahaha...
im laughin at myself...
look wad im reduced to...
haha... wad a fool haha...
GO AHEAD! LAUGH AT ME!
LAUGH ALL U WAN...
ask me if im okay...
i wil ans...
"IM FINE"
but if u wan the truth...
IM NT!
so stop askin!
haha...
ironically speakin...
i stil love you...
u were thr for me when i needed u the most...
y cant i do the same for u nw?
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