wads is goin rong wif me!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 6, 2008 11:28 PM
description 1st...
today i went 2 bxb...
brought darren n ehren to class...
then go mine...
was rather late...
was doin angles...
nt very constructive though...
after tad went lunch wif hao zhi n hao en...
then saw the rest of the gang...
so i joined them...
then go popular bought 4 books...
a 10 yr series of maths paper (literally papers! start whackin after prelims)
a minin 4 meanin (lit textbk which i dun hav for lik 7months)
a eng model compo (very useful for me nw)
a poa format n explanations (hopin 2 buck up)
then i went library to study...
was revisin vectors n matrix...
did quite alot...
then go meet yong hao...
then went bak library cauz he wanna study 4 his drivin theory test =.="
then took 88 go meet lawrence...
went 4 dinner tgt...
then took a bus bak...
ok lets go to wads circlin in my mind...
gui long told me alot todae...
a role model...
wad exactly izzit...
i always tot role model is someone wif gd leadership skills...
but then...
after lookin at JIA JUN...
he dun hav gd leadership skills, but he certainly is a gd role model...
im none at the moment...
tads y if they ask me to tak up tis role...
i dun think i can bear tis heavy responsiblity yet...
cauz seriously... i ain rdy...
after lookin at how i behave n stuff...
i dun think i can change myself overnite...
guess sometimes things dun always go ur way...
u hav to do some thinkin...
1 shot, 1 opportunity...
im nt ready to try n fight for it...
separate issues...
haiz i always felt so useless...
beneath tad cheerful n happy me...
lies an unconfidant n low self esteem truth...
i dunno y i felt tis way but...
i realise i had nt fulfill my role, nt done my part...
im seriously nt feelin so gd...
studies studies studies...
tads the current obstacle im facin...
i cant keep funkin my test...
i cant keep u company lik the others...
tads becauz nt i dun wanna...
i probably dun hav as much free time...
then can get gd results...
n 4 me if i dun study...
i wil juz keep flunkin...
i really hope for ur understandin...
cauz at this period of time...
im under immense pressure...
i really hope to get fired up n finish wad seems lik a rat race...
for the past yrs...
i always hear tis
"u reaped wad u sow"
nw i wanna ask myself...
for the past 3 yrs i hav nt sow anythin...
so for tis final fight...
do i wanna sow?
do i wanna reap the benefits...
i wanna shape my own future...
i admit jealously is gettin into my head at times...
but then i shall let it pass...
i always swallow everythin up...
bottlin everythin seemed to hav integrated into my life...
well rite nw...
i had bottle up to the brim...
im juz gonna burst soon...
as the o lvl passage saes...
the future is in ur hands...
i wanna shape mine...
i dun c any wrong wif it...
There is no real happiness except in the realization that we have accomplished something
- henry ford
INCONSOLABLE shall b my new song...
as the title suggest...
i think u peeps get my drift...
today i went 2 bxb...
brought darren n ehren to class...
then go mine...
was rather late...
was doin angles...
nt very constructive though...
after tad went lunch wif hao zhi n hao en...
then saw the rest of the gang...
so i joined them...
then go popular bought 4 books...
a 10 yr series of maths paper (literally papers! start whackin after prelims)
a minin 4 meanin (lit textbk which i dun hav for lik 7months)
a eng model compo (very useful for me nw)
a poa format n explanations (hopin 2 buck up)
then i went library to study...
was revisin vectors n matrix...
did quite alot...
then go meet yong hao...
then went bak library cauz he wanna study 4 his drivin theory test =.="
then took 88 go meet lawrence...
went 4 dinner tgt...
then took a bus bak...
ok lets go to wads circlin in my mind...
gui long told me alot todae...
a role model...
wad exactly izzit...
i always tot role model is someone wif gd leadership skills...
but then...
after lookin at JIA JUN...
he dun hav gd leadership skills, but he certainly is a gd role model...
im none at the moment...
tads y if they ask me to tak up tis role...
i dun think i can bear tis heavy responsiblity yet...
cauz seriously... i ain rdy...
after lookin at how i behave n stuff...
i dun think i can change myself overnite...
guess sometimes things dun always go ur way...
u hav to do some thinkin...
1 shot, 1 opportunity...
im nt ready to try n fight for it...
separate issues...
haiz i always felt so useless...
beneath tad cheerful n happy me...
lies an unconfidant n low self esteem truth...
i dunno y i felt tis way but...
i realise i had nt fulfill my role, nt done my part...
im seriously nt feelin so gd...
studies studies studies...
tads the current obstacle im facin...
i cant keep funkin my test...
i cant keep u company lik the others...
tads becauz nt i dun wanna...
i probably dun hav as much free time...
then can get gd results...
n 4 me if i dun study...
i wil juz keep flunkin...
i really hope for ur understandin...
cauz at this period of time...
im under immense pressure...
i really hope to get fired up n finish wad seems lik a rat race...
for the past yrs...
i always hear tis
"u reaped wad u sow"
nw i wanna ask myself...
for the past 3 yrs i hav nt sow anythin...
so for tis final fight...
do i wanna sow?
do i wanna reap the benefits...
i wanna shape my own future...
i admit jealously is gettin into my head at times...
but then i shall let it pass...
i always swallow everythin up...
bottlin everythin seemed to hav integrated into my life...
well rite nw...
i had bottle up to the brim...
im juz gonna burst soon...
as the o lvl passage saes...
the future is in ur hands...
i wanna shape mine...
i dun c any wrong wif it...
There is no real happiness except in the realization that we have accomplished something
- henry ford
INCONSOLABLE shall b my new song...
as the title suggest...
i think u peeps get my drift...
Labels: juz went i tot i was sky high... i hit rock bottom...
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